*The 14 day hearing for foster #14 was today. All I can say is that we get to enjoy little one for at least 30 more days. YAY!! that’s how I’m trying to look at it…enjoying each day & trusting the Lord with tomorrow.*
Can I say how I am continually amazed how God provides just the right words & lessons right when I need it?! Awesome!As for the title: Mine!Mine!Mine!, this is an excerpt from today’s Proverbs 31 Ministry Devotional by Lysa TerKeurst
I thought it would be a good investment for the dog relations in our home if I spent time with them outside to help them all feel the love. So, I sat on the ground and loved on each dog.
They enveloped me in a flurry of wet kisses, fur, and stinky dog breath. I was having a ball. And they were all getting along. Bliss.
Until…Willow came and sat on my lap. Claiming the prized location of closeness with me, I don’t think she realized the signal she was sending. Champ suddenly backed up and growled. His tail stopped wagging. And he was not happy.He walked beside me, looked straight at Willow, lifted his leg, and drenched me in tee-tee!
Champ was marking his territory. “That’s MY mama!”
His strong expression of “MINE” was a stark reminder to me of just how disgusting a heart bent on self can be. Champ couldn’t enjoy all he was experiencing in the moment, because he was so laser focused on the one way he felt slighted.
God challenged me to recognize and refute selfishness by seeing — really seeing all that I’ve been given. And never looking at a blessing I was given as something just for me. I always make myself think two things…
1. Thank You God for entrusting this blessing to me. I know it is a gift from You.
2. How can I use this as an opportunity to bless someone else? The blessing will be more rewarding if it’s not all about me.
Do these things come naturally? Not at first. Not in a ‘me first,’ Mine! Mine! Tee-tee on others kind of world.
But we aren’t called to live according to the norm, doing what comes naturally. We are called to rise above. Be set apart. Be different. Be pure in every way. Right in the midst of what we’re doing today, how can we graciously and purely represent Christ as we RE-present Him everywhere we go?
Dear Lord, thank You for every good and perfect gift You have given me. Help me to put others before me and to have a heart to see them as You do. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.”
So in my mind this daily devo completely hit the mark in how I’m feeling with little #14. Although I do really think this little one being with us is the best thing for him right now, a lot of my emotional struggles are about me. & how everything is affecting me. Driving fosters to visits takes time & makes me nauseated, because I think I’m better than them & they don’t deserve a visit. I struggle a LOT with not having my feelings/thoughts/rights matter at all. We’re just here to be mega-babysitters.Case workers, lawyers, judges, etc. have no care for my feelings. Me. Me. Me. This baby is Mine. Mine. Mine. Yuck.
Having a newborn, even for a short time, is such a gift from God! & being able to keep these little ones healthy & safe & loved, even if only for a short time is exactly what I need to be doing for the child & the family & maybe even for case workers, our friends, our family & maybe even strangers to see God’s hand at work. (That’s if I let Him shine & don’t get all stuck on my emotions)
Another way I can bless someone else is by letting my friends with baby bugs get to hold these little ones! Selfishly I want to hold them all the time. I’m not by nature good at sharing babies. I have to work hard at it. Lately I’ve actually enjoyed getting to see other people’s face light up when they get to hold one of our little foster babies.
It will still be hard if/when we have to say goodbye to little baby. But for now, all I can focus on is this day, this moment & my attitude. I’m going to be thankful that we have #14 each day. & try to find opportunities for God to shine through our fostering.
So glad Lysa shared today about how gross selfishness really is.